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Some people make me sick to the stomach.

I don't know how they think. I have absolutely no understanding of why they do the things that they do. I see no logic behind many/all of thier stupid decisions. I'm not totally talking about ONE person in particular... mostly.

I hate the lies, that stupid passive aggressive game, the rumors, the vain nature of it all. I don't understand why girls always have to try and push eachother down. I don't see what that ever accomplishes. Why do so few people really see how dumb it all is? There's only one person out there that I talk to, that also understand this the way I do. You know who you are; Thank you so much. I don't think I could live without you.

I hate people who are that, "fake honest". I also hate people who think that they have to be able to "control" others. Those people who yearn so badly to be that image of the "queen bee". All they are, are insecure people. Those kind of people need to get over themselves. The world does not revolve around ANYBODY.

Image. <- where shall this ever take anyone in life? There are so many people in our school, who simply want to be "perfect". In this messed up world, there is no perfect. I'm sorry to break it too you. By being this perfect person, the only kind of people you attract are those as vain as yourself. Why can't people simply be comfortable with who they are? The world has a bit more too it, than having that stereotypical "perfect life" that does not exist.

Rumors. What the hell do these accomplish? You say something that is simply not true, and people believe it. I hate the people who believe that kind of crap. Even worst, I hate the people who START the crap. Once again, those lost souls are simply people who are insecure and wish to pull others down.

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Okay.

I know this entry sounds really bitter, but at the moment, it's how I feel, bluntly put. I could write more, but I think that would scare some people off. I'm not writing this to accuse anyone of anything, it's just how I feel, and I needed to get it out.

Yay

I went to see Harry Potter yesterday. I can't say it was the most wonderful movie adaptation of a book ever...*cough Lord of the Rings cough* but it was okay. I have to say though, the third task was majorly lame. It consisted mostly, of moving bushes... tsk tsk.

I've been doing lots of SHOPPING lately. For the past few months, I've never really been finding things that I like. Now, I ALWAYS find something that I must have. It's messed up. I guess it comes in cycles. I AM still on the lookout for scarves though. I am now in love with those things. They keep me warm. And things that keep me warm are very much loved.

I found my Disneyland 3 day, parkhopping pass thing. It was in my cool lanyard which was precariously tossed beneath my desk. lol. I wonder how it ended up THERE, considering that it is a wonderful fasion statement, and because I would SOOOOO like to have to wear it again. x.x <- it's a DEAD face...

It.. was so  r a n d o m. Yesterday, as our cool little group was walking around Streets of Tanasbourne, I stopped in the middle of the road to see who, but MINDY TRAN. It was really wierd. I looked in the car thing, and she was just sitting there. So I waved. Her family probably thought I was completely nuts. I get that alot though, so it's not really anything to worry about.

This coming week, I get 2 test thingmabobs back. I feel I did somewhat well on the math test, but then again, I always think that. Then I only do OKAY. (-.-) The Physics test..? I honestly have no clue with what to expect for that. I was forced into making many "educated guesses" Meaning, I didn't know the material perfectly well. I guess I'll have to wait and see.

Nyaa.. I kind of want to go back to school, but I kind of don't. I DO, because I get kind of bored at home. I DON'T, because I'm lazy. Today I shall go to the mall place with my mother. That place that use to be called Beaverton Mall, or what not. It's the one that says "barking frog" outside the entrance. I havn't ever understood why it says that, I don't think I ever shall.

I feel awake. I got enough sleep last night.

Ja Nyaa..

-Leaundra

I <3 you all. (Mostly anyways...)

Just thought I'd let you all know that. I seem to be slipping out of that not quite depressed, but not quite happy state I was in earlier. California was AMAZING. We kicked @$$.

I love all my friends and family so much. For some reason, today I was realizing how good I really have it. Winterguard shall be starting soon. Can't wait. We shall be INSIDE, no wind, no rain, no extreme cold. Thank goodness.

I decided today that Celestial Grace is going to die. It really does nothing for me anymore. Thinking of updates and stuff... seems more like an obligation than something that I really want to do. I'll be working on a personal site though, something that will only mean anything to people who know me. I'll be making my own online scrapbook and stuff. That'll be fun.

ANYWAYS, lots happened in California. Lots and lots of stuff. We'll see what I can cover in this entry. Where to begin...

• Lots of caffeine entered the system
• We had some pretty spiffy chaperones.
• Limited sleep = good?
• Didn't go on teacups. =(
• Hit the ceiling lots and lots.
• watched PRETTY fireworks.
• Marched in a Disney parade.
• Ate a churro
• Found an amazing guy
• Fell back on love with Stitch.
• Dropped a phone in maple syrup.
• Made wishes on many coins.
• Went on Small World.
• Went on Indiana Jones.
• [EDIT] went on MANY rides.
• Ditched a chick in a wheelchair.
• Got very little sleep.
• Performed a nearly flawless show.
• No drops, no sails!
• Said NO to homework.
• Took many blackmail capable pictures.
• Went on a date with Lauren. =P
• Drank a pitcher of Mountain Dew. (almost)
• Scared 7 people off of the flight home.
• Character breakfast!
• Toon jail. =P
• Sat on a HUGE L.
• Saw a HUUUUUUUUUUGE Orange.
• Rode the carousel.
• Became afraid of hotel eggs.
• Was accused of making out... while I was sleeping on a heater.
• Partook in mucho junk food.
• Talked on a hotel phone for 2 hours.
• stayed up and talked... in a bathroom.
• Got stuck between the bed and the crack.
• Watched Family guy.
• Almost got eaten by a trash can.
• Talked to ride attendants.
• Learned that the ride attendants are payed well.
• Rode the train... around and around...

Tragedy... there ish so much THERE. but there is STILL more. Goodness gracious. I'll have some pics up soon. Oh wow. Those shall be PRETTY interesting. I need to go Christmas shopping for people. Thats always a task. tsk tsk.

Coming up within the next month... are many birthdays. Kim Ryan Sarah Cecilie. <- aiiya. You guys are getting so OLD. =P 

 I had fun with colors. =)

I <3 you Zach

Hello.

It's nice to look out the window and see blue skies. That hasn't really happened for a while. I've been in such a wierd mood lately. You can't quite call it... sad, but it's not normal. I've started to feel more like, my life is FAKE. I act happy alot, I act hyper alot, but I'm not always necesarily happy all the time. I act way too crazy for my own good. I think it's because being insane is easier than facing fact.

I have now deemed that Creative Writing is not a complete waste of my time. It's definitely DIFFERENT than any other class I've taken before though. In the beginning of the year Mrs. Comfort began by saying, "This class is worth so much more than a grade." <- I really didn't believe her then. I laughed and thought she was kinda crazy. Now I know what she meant. It IS worth more. You write for yourself. Not for the GPA. It feels good to write, just because you want to. I wish there were more things in life like that. I wish not everything was weighed down by image, expectation, vanity, obligation. Everything that has consumed our society.

What is UP with school? What ever made people decide that they needed to wear super tight clothes, low cut tank tops, and nonexistent skirts? Why do these people think that being "popular" and vain in high school will ever get them anywhere in the future? Why can't everyone be NICE? Sure, you may have a BILLION friends in high school (who by the way might not really even BE your friends), your face might be in the yearbook a buncho times, but in the REAL world, where you get a job, and you WORK for a living, being vain is not going to get you  A n y w h e r e.

Writing is also a way to get your thoughts together, and communicate with the people you love. Reading back on things, the stuff I write in xanga are things that i want people to know, but don't necesarily want to say out loud. I also noticed that my entries have become more, cynical I guess. I muse more about things that matter instead of going on simply about my daily happenings. Xanga helps me vent.

Competition thingmabob was on Saturday. All the way over in Corvallis. All this traveling recently for guard... makes me think of  gym. And it makes me sad. Hotel rooms with friends, airplane trips. I've been on so many of those, and they all stand out clearly in my mind, because they all MEANT something to me.

California in... 2 days. I checked the weather online, and when we're there, minus wednesday it's sunny skies, and low 70's. A much improved temperature than here in Oregon. The competition on Saturday. It was so COLD. I honestly don't think that I have ever been that cold before in my LIFE. We ended up placing like, 11th or something in finals, but everyone tried thier hardest and pushed through the ucky weather. So thats all that counts right? <3

I talked to him. And I didn't say anything extremely... stupid. =P

I'm proud. <(^.^)>

-L

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There's only one guy for me now. =P